3/30/2014
Today I pulled out my charcoals and large newsprint, wow what a difference this makes.  Why didn’t I do that sooner?  I miss sketching with charcoal, and sadly I can’t take them with me on my two week trip.  Hopefully I will remember and break them out when I get home (I’m flying to NY for work for two weeks, so my art supplies will be limited).  From memory I tried to do a self portrait, you see there was a painting I did a week or so back, I loved the model because her stomach reminded me of mine.  I have received many comments on that painting about her stomach, so many people happy to see one like their own, and I realized mine wasn’t as uncommon as I thought, just underrepresented.  So I thought I’d try creating more art with that kind of stomach.  I think I made myself look too thin in this sketch, it’s hard to get yourself accurately.  It’s a start though.  Why did I dod this from memory instead of snapping a photo?  Simple, I wanted to see what I could produce, wanted to see what my vision of myself was.  It’s always a big risk for me to conduct self portraits, especially nudes, and then put it out there.  I always feel so vulnerable and scared, but its a beautiful kind of pain.